Yes, I have a lot to consider too, you're right. Having teenagers is not easy even though they are wonderful kids, there are still hormones and not much talking and they are growing up and will be leaving in a few years. Plus I have some big decisions to make career-wise in the autumn. I should be busy having my own midlife crisis instead of holding the family and myself together as a result of his! And you're also right that I need to forgive myself as well as dh for the mistakes we made in the past. Luckily I'm a very positive person and I believe in letting go of the past and learning from it in the future. Being an optimist has its downsides but also plenty of benefits
