I know what you mean. I'm angry with my H and I know the way he's acted towards me is just unacceptable. I love him very much and I feel sad he's in a bad place, awful that I can't help him, and contrite for the pain I have caused him. I do accept that if our relationship ends in divorce that my actions will have had a huge role to play in it, and I also accept I can't repair it on my own and I can't make him say or do or feel anything and I can't make him believe that I am working towards being ready to piece things together with him. It is very hard. On dark days, when I am feeling grief striken and lonely or when I am angry and resentful, if someone offered me a magic pill that would turn my love off and just turn him into 'some guy who collects the kids a couple of times a week' I would mortgage my house to buy it from them. I guess there's just no way around the pain but through it.
I would love your perspective on my situation. I am trying to learn a lot here.
Sending you hugs! I would love to put in on that magic pill, lol! I quickly read through your sitch but can you give me a little more info. I know your H has been rude to you and said mean things. Is he in MLC?
Original BD: 10/26/2017 PA: 10/2017 - 11/2017 Second BD: 09/15/2018 Currently: IHS M: 42 H: 45 S: 22 lives on his own D: 18 away at college S: 15 still lives at home - the only child we share together
