Clinging to Hope

[hope2019]

That’s why I thought it was so odd that I said I was going to move out and he doesn’t want me to. He mentioned the financial side of things but the fact he said and “like you said it gives us time to see where we are at”. But he is adamant the divorce has to happen and then we can see where we are at after that. It’s just odd. He seemed a lot more open and thoughtful yesterday. It’s good for me to no the going dim and LRT was working. But also I know he is seeing changes in me because I am seeing them to. He gave up on me but I refuse to give up on me.

GAL is hard for me but I have been going out a lot. Socializing with friends, I’m trying not to turn down any invites anywhere. Made my butt go to the gym and relax by the pool today for some self care. Tomorrow I’m taking my daughter to the beach, I love the beach but haven’t gone much in 3 years because he doesn’t like going. If we can make round 2 work, I’m not giving up the things I love like the beach. I’m going to accept we don’t need to be together 24/7 and just enjoy my independence as well