I know what you mean. I'm angry with my H and I know the way he's acted towards me is just unacceptable. I love him very much and I feel sad he's in a bad place, awful that I can't help him, and contrite for the pain I have caused him. I do accept that if our relationship ends in divorce that my actions will have had a huge role to play in it, and I also accept I can't repair it on my own and I can't make him say or do or feel anything and I can't make him believe that I am working towards being ready to piece things together with him. It is very hard. On dark days, when I am feeling grief striken and lonely or when I am angry and resentful, if someone offered me a magic pill that would turn my love off and just turn him into 'some guy who collects the kids a couple of times a week' I would mortgage my house to buy it from them. I guess there's just no way around the pain but through it.
I would love your perspective on my situation. I am trying to learn a lot here.
