Steve, I can't thank you enough for that. W actually called my on the way home from the game. I spoke with S11 and he was so happy they won. I continued practicing my better communication skills with him. The W and I talked for 10 minutes or so. She was so warm and talkative. Honestly, I needed that. I so badly wanted to tell her I miss her. Crazy, for the last 24 hours, my head has spun some story that she's secretly leaving her phone at home and sneaking off with someone or that she's planning her walk and will have things half packed when I get home. I HAVE TO TRUST HER! When she says she's hopeful for us and is working on the M, I have to trust that it's just on a different time scale and way that I am.
The only thing you mention that I am right there with...although I feel fairly well self-differentiated and that I could do me without her, I still have a significant piece of myself being tied up to her "warmth" or willingness to talk, or some sign of something! She isn't recognizing it as pressure right now because I'm not around her, but man am I looking for any type of sign so I can be happy or devastated. I gotta get to "even" me.
Me: 44 Her: 42 T: 22, M: 20 D:18, S:16, S:11 Sep: 6 months in 2002 Sep again: March 15, 2015 (5 months) WAW talk again: January 21, 2019
