Divorce and Acceptance part 3

[Pax_luv]

Hey hey.

This was supposed to be an eventful week with my sitch, but it ended up not happening. I won’t share the details because it’s too specific, but things continue on as usual. Same crazy shenanigans from ex and his camp.

Unrelated to that above, I got the results of the appraisal for the house. I was surprisingly really anxious when looking at the photos of the house... especially the interior. It just gave me that familiar pang of anxiety and betrayal. It was interesting to see how unbelievably stale the house looked. Some things were the same... some of my decor was still up, but I didn’t see any life or vibrance. It was weird. Or maybe that is the emotion it evoked in me. Regardless, it was hard and painful to look. I won’t go back and review the photos in detail... I don’t need to.

Im glad that’s out of the way and it will come in handy soon, I hope.

Other than that, I’ve been feeling a bit stagnant myself. The last few years my GAL has been on level 10. I was also setting up goals and knocking them out of the park. What’s been challenging the last year has been the fact that finances have been so tight thanks to these crazy legal fees. Sure I could find things to do that are affordable, but it’s tough. I just went to a baby shower and I didn’t bring a gift because I couldn’t afford one. Oh my gosh. It’s so embarrassing. I’ll send her something when payday lines up a little better between these giant expenses.

Anyway, I’d really like to go back to school. At least to get a certificate or something. I’m just wasting away. I mean don’t get me wrong.... I read a lot and do a lot to learn things for free, but it sure would be nice to invest in something tangible that will help me later.

I also continue to look at side hustle opportunities to help financially, but like my lawyer cautioned, ex may get some of that. So.... I sit on my hands.

Alright.... clearly there’s not a lot of substance to this post. I’m a-ok, just feeling stuck. Meh.