Clinging to Hope

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I'm struggling today. Hoping to hear some success stories of people who's spouse had filed and then managed to do LRT or something. I know so many things I did wrong and that I need to work on, time is not on my side. Add to that my job seems to be trying to manage me out and everything is really scary right now I love him so much and just want him to give me the patience to be the spouse he deserves.

I am doing LRT. But im not a success story. I am doing LRT because I am done with my WW. One thing I can tell you that you will be successful at is being happy again. September through November 2018 I was hurting badly. I missed my W so much. I loved her so deeply and dearly. But she didnt care and I allowed myself to ride the emotional rollercoaster of pain.

I decided to stop everything that resembled pursuit and to focus on my happiness and my kids happiness. I am headed for D and will move out soon, but I am happy and excited about it because I know I will be fine and that I will be happy.

Try hard to just do whats right for yourself right now. Drop any expectations you have for your M because it just causes you to spin in circles and hurt constantly. You will be fine. You will get through this and you will be happy again. Trust me. Trust yourself. You may or may not remain married. But you are responsible for your own happiness and will find it again.

I still get down and have bad days. But I know that I have a ton of life left and I am going to spend it doing what makes me happy and not worrying about my WW. She can worry about herself.