I already did extensive research about my S and I do not have any right or law to help me see him, it breaks my heart, I know he asks about me, we were best friends, we would play all the time, he would listen to me more that to W, W would get angry seeing us having a good time or him doing what I asked him to do with no tantrum, W would say " WHY i DO LOOK LIKE BI^% HERE? HE LISTENS TO YOU" it sounded like jealousy to me, I did not have any intentions to be the better parent or anything, I think we have a good connection.