Quick journal: I was very positive on the journey there. Nice outfit, red lipstick, bouncy walk all the way from the station. We had a fun date and then went for pizza. I validated as much as I could while he ranted about work. Told him what I'd been up to. Had a bit of a meltdown talking about ds1 getting prospectuses for unis close to home, I said maybe he doesn't want to leave home (unlike dh, didn't say that), that maybe he feels unconsciously like the man of the house now. Got teary, then changed the subject. Repaired with a silly anecdote from yesterday. When we got to the station he gave me a big hug, a proper hug. I kissed his cheek and said I hated saying goodbye. He didn't say anything but he always looks so panic stricken when we say goodbye. Sigh. Anyway, I will not cry on the train. People on busy trains pretend you don't exist.
