Thanks guys - I am trying to keep my head up whilst I walk this path I have chosen. Some days are better than others and more and more often, my laughter and smiles are genuine.
Neff - I am so grateful that you are here. It cannot be easy reading some of these sitch's. It is a testament to the man you are that you want to help. As an aside, and despite that fact that I cannot understand a word of it (English is my first, and only language), it makes me smile when I read Davide's thread and see the banter between the two of you. A little light in the darkness.
Davide - Get on that dance floor. Let go. There is nothing more beautiful than a man on the dance floor who is lost in the moment. Turn your brain off. Feel the music as it moves through you. Breath. Same as mediation, but with music and movement. I remember the dirty looks I use to get from my H. Every time someone approached me he would scowl. I would always point out my H and/or my wedding ring so no-one got the wrong idea, but this never helped. There were many conversations in many cabs with me feeling like I had done something wrong when really it was his issue.
Adam - Trance ?!?!? You're the man. Don't ever be embarrassed about being lost in the music. Like you, I lost this part of myself. I didn't and still don't see it as a sacrifice. Just a necessary part of building a family. Staying out till all hours does not work well with young children, a serious career and a husband who is away more than he was home. But things change. My children are growing up, my career is pretty stable, and my husband is gone. I am rediscovering the girl I was before him. Parts of it I have to leave in the past and other parts I am taking into the future with me. I am going to travel and see the world. I am going to make new friends and hear their stories. And I am going to dance. I hope I can do these things with my H. But I suspect I will be doing them alone.
