Was it already mentioned what the covert contract is here for you to read up on? I believe you thought she may have wanted to hear ILY but I also believe you moreso wanted to hear her say ILY to you. I think that was your vulnerability you felt before leaving to make yourself feel better. I may be wrong but that’s the impression I got from reading it.
I’m sure you know often times we want to do the right thing for them but our judgement is clouded by our own wants and our minds can play these little tricks saying we are doing things for them but really it’s for us too.
Forward thinking. Think about what you will say and do before you do them and then ask yourself how this will cause your W to feel. I don’t think it will hurt to think about the convo you and your W may have on the phone if it happens. Plan for it, but don’t expect it. This may be how you can make the best of it. If you got the jitters from the sitch and from being away, lose them so you can exude strength and confidence if there is phone opportunity.
Enjoy yourself , remember everything you’ve said about detachment. And patience!
Btw, when did she talk to you about this new sitch and that she always initiated everything? If I were in your shoes I can see how that muddles up trying to find the appropriate action to take.
H 49 , W 47 T 23, M 17 S11, S5 BD: 7/18 IHS: 7/18 - 3/19 Physically Separated: 3/19-4/19 Piecing: 4/19 - Current
