struggling, struggling, struggling....I feel I have detached and am not ready to let her back in. She has her ring on and I don't want one...actually sold it last weekend. She is transparent, she is remorseful but what else am I looking for?

What a bizarre feeling, we work so hard to get ourselves back and then when what we thought what we wanted comes back we struggle to accept it. Is this our own fog?

H-50
W-48
T-19
M -18
S23, S14
BD - 5/9/2018
OM discovered 5/10/2018

In house sep - 8/18/2018
Rope drop 2/15/2019
R'ing since 3/15/2019