After a great lunch yesterday, things went a bit quiet and distant last night. There was still small talk, and she still initiated it. I detached an read last night. She hopped in bed and we may have exchanged a few words. No good night from her, which I certainly grilled on. Got a good morning from her. Some small talk. Of course I let my expectations rise because we have been communicating very well and interactions have been warm. Mistake. I could feel my attachment to her. My mood was dependent on how she was interacting with me. I was leaving town for 4 days, so I expected some warmth from her. It wasn’t there. I stayed busy and only communicated when she initiated. As I was walking to the door, she followed. I opened the door and turned to say goodbye. She put her hands on my face and gave me a big kiss and said have a great trip. I just reacted and said thanks, ILY. She said ILY2.
For the first hour of the drive, I couldn’t stop thinking about her or processing the last 12 hours. Just when you think you’ve done a good job detaching...boom. I really going to try and detach this week. I won’t initiate any texting unless it’s about the kids. I won’t call expect to tell the kids goodnight. I’m going to sound like a 7 year old here, but I want a temperature check!!! .
Me: 44 Her: 42 T: 22, M: 20 D:18, S:16, S:11 Sep: 6 months in 2002 Sep again: March 15, 2015 (5 months) WAW talk again: January 21, 2019
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