She's playing with your head. She doesn't want to save her M, she just wants you to be her friend. The minute you show some action without consulting with her....she's ready to turn the tables and make it sound as if you out to be the bad guy. She does not want to be your W! She just wants you to be nice to her while she sleeps with OM.
Having another conversation about it is not going to accomplish anything. She goes in circles until you don't know what to think. So, stop playing her game. Find your b@lls and let her go. That's the only thing that is going to pull her back. Don't tell her you are going to take back your b@lls.........just do it. If you were not M and this was a girlfriend who was sleeping with another man.......what would you do?
Yeah, I am realizing that I have to get my b@lls back. I was looking like a chump begging and pleading, etc. Today she has been nice to me but we are having an issue with one of my daughters. I had to leave work to take her to get blood work done. When it comes to the kids, I will communicate. In the middle of communicating about the kids, she asked if I was drinking last night. I just said "No" and ended that text message exchange. She then called me to let me know some other info on my daughter that could have been handled via text but I answered. I think she said I love you at the end of the call but I just said OK and got off the line.
Amazing how yesterday she was all it is over, this is how I am gonna be, etc. Then all of a sudden her "temp check" of being nice appears the next day. Also, I noticed that she drank some yesterday when I was gone so I must have drove her into one of her drinking frenzies. I am not going to be disrespected any more. If she says I am being controlling. I will just tell her, no, I am controlling my emotional state and well being. She will do what she wants but it will not impact me and my progress to be a better person. I will find that book that you recommend to further reduce or cure my NGS.
