Quick journal: dh rang me when I was driving somewhere earlier, we had a pleasant chat about the weather and his hay fever and where I was going. Then he double checked that I'm still coming to our date tomorrow night and the time we're meeting. All positive stuff. I think I am just going to have to settle for being friends for now. Albeit I will dress in something nice and flirt a bit I didn't tell him about the talk I'm going to tonight, I suppose it'll be something to talk about tomorrow night. I went through a phase of feeling inadequate and boring with him, but then I realised that he's the one with the boring life and I can do interesting stuff. So I am
Underneath I feel like he loves me, so is this pushing back whenever I have the R talk mostly fear that we'll slip back into old habits if he comes back? It's so perplexing. I will validate the heck out of whatever he says and also be assertive about my needs and maybe it'll help things keep moving in the right direction.
I didn't tell him about the talk I'm going to tonight, I suppose it'll be something to talk about tomorrow night. I went through a phase of feeling inadequate and boring with him, but then I realised that he's the one with the boring life and I can do interesting stuff. So I am 