It's been awhile. Nothing much has changed. One house sold. One more to go. It will be a huge burden lifted when the second house sells. Then, I can move on with my new life -- without the stress. I only have a few weeks to pack my stuff up and move it into temporary storage.
I spent the last two weeks with my daughters. I really enjoyed my time with them. Older daughter did well at her gymnastics meet. Younger daughter is really into football cards. Now, it's back to missing them. The worst feeling in the world comes when I have to say goodbye to them. That's the big pain point to this whole ordeal. Alone time is alright once in awhile, but not seeing them 50% of the time is a gut punch. I will see them again next week.
In early April I'll take the girls to Pensacola Beach over Spring Break. I planned a trip back home this weekend, but I had to cancel that because I'll be packing. I also had a trip planned to Las Vegas in April, but I may cancel that due to financial strain right now. The double mortgage gets expensive.
Nothing much has changed with my interaction with XW. It's pretty non-existent -- which is fine. I interacted with her for a day because of older daughter's gymnastics meet. We drove together. At times she was her overbearing self, but I do miss her. She's engaging, intelligent, and beautiful. She's settled into a super nice mode for the most part. She even apologized for not putting gas in my vehicle. (I use her vehicle when I'm down there and she uses mine when she's up here.) I don't think she's filled my tank yet (which is understandable because she's usually rushing to the airport from a long distance), but this is the first time she acknowledged it.
I'm still interacting with the gal I met on an online dating site. We plan on hooking up when I move my stuff to my new location. She seems nice and cute -- although I worry that she may be a bit "curvier" than her profile pics. It's hard to tell and I've been told not to trust profile pics. It's less important to me than in the past though. I had a hot wife, but what good did that do me. I think I'd rather settle for somebody who thinks I"m a catch. I want somebody's whose beauty is not a mile wide and an inch deep.
The advice here is solid. Still GALing, detaching, 180ing. However, it's best to completely lose the expectations. If you don't save your marriage, you'll at least save yourself.
