For me I have chosen to embrace limbo. I have a many desires to do otherwise. My beliefs are stronger. One of them: I will not date while married, a belief, a conviction, that incredibly has been tested by so many different people. Stories of their own divorces taking years and all the while dating. It sounds and feels so compelling, I could just go for it. No, I have to live with myself, and feelings are fleeting.
This struck me, as I have chosen to do the same. Although I have struggled considerably the last week, I remain firm in my belief that Standing is right for me now, and dating while married goes against the core of who I am ....a person who believes in her vows. I can also see how complicated my life would be if I added that into the mix. My emotions are all over the place now, I don't want to add loathing to the list.
Originally Posted by DnJ
There is a lot of anxiety and anxiousness in your post. A lot of worry and fear about possible future events. You are correct with your assessment of it being irrational. That does not mean crazy, it just means not logically based. Get in you intellectual car and reason your way through this rough patch.
Yes. Anxiousness. It is a very strong pull into the dark side. I do tend to dwell way too much on future events. Why worry until there is something to worry about? Ah, the logic is so clear. Emotions cloud the logic.
I'm clawing my way out of anxiousness, but it has a strong hold. Another event happened today that pulled me back hard. Something to do with Hs work. Could be real trouble. But again. I don't know anything about it, yet, so I will try not to worry about some future, unknown event.
Anxiousness. Go away.
DnJ - I will look at your post about fear, but I think I need a break. Boot Camp soon. It helps clear my head.
