Thanks Deja, Blu and Nicole. You are such great friends I wish I could meet you all in person
I have been very infrequent on the forum, work has been hectic and just trying to expand my life. My healing journey continues. WH has been the king of crazy land and looks like his reign there will last for sometime. I am staying away from it as much as I can. There have been times when he has pulled me into convos which if they were temp checks I may have failed but to be honest for most part I sail through, I don’t put them on these boards even anymore because finally I understand those one or two convos don’t matter. I am who I am, I am also growing both emotionally and spiritually, if he doesn’t want to be with me then it’s his loss. My focus is on me and on the kids. I am taking a 2 month trip with the kiddos and will not be on these boards. I have been standing strong by myself and raising 2 lil ones for almost 8 months now , I am going to my home country to spend time with family. Hopefully this will give me a good break and much needed rest It may sound silly but sometimes when I think of the what if’s and WH returning I almost feel bad to give up my new life and independence. And I haven’t even remotely started to think of dating or a new R. I am mostly enjoying myself when I am not GAL, I realize I am a delightful person really. There are bad times of course it’s now a year to BD, but I handle them so much better
I will be thinking of you all and wishing all your lives are filled with peace. Hoping I see you all more joyful when I read all your updates once I m back. I for one, am determined to make my own life a great one, why shouldn’t I, after all I am so blessed
