Days go by, GAL is great but still I find myself crying and missing my W and S, we had no contact almost at all, a lot of thing were unspoken.
Do I need closure? Do I need to hang in there? Do I need to wait?
I already act like a single person, I stay really busy and as productive as I can, I very little time off, today I had to slow down and go home after work today, I am exhausted, to much overtime, to much working out ( I already run 5k every other day I started at nothing and completely unfit) I am almost 40 pounds lighter. Don't get me wrong, I love the results of my healthy diet and exercise, I am still active on meditation too, I manage to get classes for free since I volunteered to cook vegetarian meals to the staff and teachers, I have a few new friends, I spend weekends doing activist work for an animal rights group, I meet people everywhere now, I have given my phone number to a few ladies only to regret when they call me for coffee, I usually tell them I am busy.
Why after all of this overpowering success at GALing I still feel almost dead?
