If DB didn't help you save you MR then yeah the side effect was helping you better yourself. If I recall you had it pretty bad from the get go, but you are here now and still moving forward. You can always come over the the dark-side (surviving the big D) there are some vets on there with really good experiences and advice to share post-D.
H(37) W(35) D8, D5, S3 T20, M13 BD 8/31/18 EA Discovered 9/13/18 Mediation 10/3/18 W files for D 10/12/18 W moves out 11/10/18 EA confirmed 12/25/18 D Final 1/10/19