So i realize that I have been pursuing still...didn't realize that until yesterday. I stayed away from her and only answered to things about the kids. I am implementing the LRT as best I can. Almost done reading the Codependent No More book. The DB and DR books arrived in the mail last night. I have them to read next. To read them and look to GAL at the same time, I may go to the library to get out of the house. I know I need to do other fun things. I have never been a reader. But this allows me to get out of the house and be able to read on how to implement my changes in my life better.
I have an IC appointment today so I can start working on my clinginess, controlling, etc.
My question when it relates to controlling. I know I can not control her or her actions. However, I can control what I do. I think I have been appeasing her too much still. Picking up her prescription. Cooking her food. If she brings up the discussion about separating, I will tell her to do what she feels is right. Is that the time to say when you make your decision, we can talk about living arrangements here (if she stays). I want to move back into the MBR. She talked about moving to spare bedroom. To be honest, I have been sleeping on this foam pad (we had just gotten rid of the old queen bed that was in there. She mentioned before of buying a bed for in there. If she moves out of the MBR and into the spare, should I give in to buy a bed for in there. or Just ignore it if she mentions it?
As I am writing this, I just got an email from her (I have not texted her or emailed her at all since the stuff I showed you yesterday), It just says that she hopes my therapy session goes well and see me this evening. I know it is early but that is progress that she is temp checking me. I have not responded yet but I may respond back "Thank you" and end it at that. Your thoughts? Or should I not respond at all.
I think it is funny that I got an email from her this morning. She woke me up in my room in the middle of the night. One of my daughters had a tummy ache and had woken her up. She opened my door and just asked me if they had their medicine on Friday (medical issue with both Ds that trying to be resolved). I just said I do not know and she made some snarky remark and closed the door. The old me would have gotten up and assisted. If my D issues was really bad, I would have gotten up. But I knew this was a moment that I was not needed (the kids will go to either one of us depending on the need). Since the D went to her this time, I just went back to bed. That is why I think it is funny that she sent the email this morning. She was mad and I didn't appease or try to assist. Just went back to sleep.
