Last week i was saying that maybe i would not need therapy, now i can not wait for my appointment tomorrow. I was in the gym and could feel tears building up, i need to keep to classes so my mind does not go to dark places.
This week he have sent me loads of messages, plus lawyers letters. I had 1 day free of his crap. Some days he choose to go on the attack. when are we putting the house in the market? others he goes on how much he misses his daughter and that he loves her very much, asking for cute photos and wanting chit chat.
I am so tired of mind games. If was not my daughter future on the line i would have given up long time ago. This can break anyone.
I do not replay, just anything to do with his daughter, but of course you still read and feel crap afterwards.
Today one second he was texting me asking if i could drive half of way to drop his daughter ( So i would have to drive 300km return). Hello? He knew where she live before he decide to move more then 300 km away. I know that will happen one day, but i actually never have been 1 day without seeing my daughter. Not sure how i will deal with that. The next minute he was sending a text to let me know that the steak was on offer this week.
I know that he never gonna comeback, he is far to happy with his life, drinking, easy sex, feeling like he is the man to realize how much damage he is causing. His happiness is the only thing that matters.
I am 4/5 months in this situation, with 2 months in the pick me dance. somehow i feel like i should be more ahead in the game. Being financially dependent on him does not help, he have a lot of power at the moment. ( I try not show to him of course). But he have the money, the fact that he is infatuate with a Ow (younger and party girl), that the law his not pro to the child here. The only think that i have is being stubborner, have principals and have my daughter.
