Rocky Road

[Miler]

So I woke up on the impatient side. I just can't get over how talkative, upbeat, and engaged my W seems...yet none of the affection, ILYs, or closeness that comes as part of a R. I had to get out of the house, even though I wanted to be around the kids (despite their Fortnite addiction). My D18 leaves for college in a few months, so I want to cram as much in as possible!

I popped off the couch and said, I'm hopping in the shower and then heading to the gym. My W says, you're going to go to the gym? She smiled and said wow...alright. As soon as I walked out of the shower, she says, can I tag along at the gym? I said sure, no problem. She said, you sure? I said absolutely. It got a little awkward on the way to the gym when we tried to figure out if we were working out together or separately and just driving their together. But, we got passed it with small chat. We ended up working out together, encouraging each other, and fist bumping at the end of sets. Again, small talk on the way home. It's really hard to detach right now. I'm trying my best, but I'm guessing by not detaching completely, I'm just allowing things to fall back into bad habits. I want to know where her head space is so badly...UGGG.