It is pretty weird to see the time travel our spouses do. To realize the kids are suddenly 2 years older. Happens during temp checks and other visits from within the tunnel. It is weird to witness, and really difficult to explain to someone else. From their point of view - “MLC is BS” is a lot easier. It is an interesting edge to walk, knowing what we know, and knowing others don’t want to know.
I’ve had to let go of some long time friends. I can see there is simply no point in destroying their world view of things. Also there is no way to actually get through, they have chosen a path with W, and away from me and kids.
You dear girl, are doing really well. I believe a while ago I called you remarkable, I am glad you didn’t make me a liar.
I am curious. Are you still hopeful for reconciliation, a new R with W, just coparenting, still standing, or standing down? I know how difficult the long view is. One day at a time is the correct way, I am just wondering what your desires are?
From a practical stand point, regardless of the long view with W, what about you? Job? Career? Custody? Still need a lawyer? Car repair?
If I recall you are successfully cooking and baking and selling it out of your house. I know you have medical issues; I am wondering if you could open a restaurant or a more permanent situation. Perhaps, working at a bakery or other already established business would provide a more stable source of income. Not sure if owner/operator of a food establishment appeals to you. You get some equity, a bank loan, or a business partner, and who knows. Just ideas, as I said, curious how you are doing?
DnJ
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
