I just realized last night after reading other people’s stitch and stuff what I was doing wrong in the relationship. I was Being controlling. I was clingy and needy. I had or have a fear of abandonment. She even mentioned a while back that I was too smothering. I also always accused her of wanting to be with other people. She claims recently that this was the first tome she has ever cheated on me. I pushed her there by being controlling and feeling like she was going to abandon me. That is what I need to work on as well as staying sober.