Just keep swimming, I know I can, New beginning

[marina7]

DnJ Thank you (((( hugs))))

Peacetoday,yes W wants to know as lately
I been quite. And honestly accepting more friends dinner and
Movies outing.

Journaling,
Well first I am realizing yes out come isn't what I wanted
But it might be helping W. We all know W was all a MLCERS and runner
And vanisher and monster. I seriously should right a book about Mlcers all
In One.

So April we be on 24 months since BD but I know now it's been longer.
Thanks to FB and 2yrs ago W was already check out. I see the shark eyes
When W through me a huge surprise birthday party. It was like the last hoorah

I took lots of pictures and friends tagging me and W was always away
From me and couple times on the phone. Wow how didn't I see this.

Well I will be posting what happened today on phone call when
I called trio's just to say Hi.

W answered usually is the kid's who answer and usually because
They answer. I say hey Babies

W hi it's me
M oh sorry
W laughing stop M so d10 got invited to party and when I drop off boys
Also got invited and I say here.
M how cool
W yeah, do you want to talk to them
M No W I bet they having fun.
W yes, they are is interesting to see them
They are different, they are growing up M
I can't believe our babies aren't babies No more.
M yeah little tweens
W yeah I see what your saying take the time now that they want
To spend time. Is so weird seeing them.
M what you mean
W wow where do I begin they no longer look for me they laughing
Like they grown people. I am sitting here starring at them and just in all
M yeah little people
W yes is crazy M what happened to our babies
M they growing up. I am so happy to hear they are happy
W I am not they growing up, so this morning s9 snuggle with me
I smelled him he smelled like a baby but then I realized he is as almost
Tall as me.
W yelp. Wow M what happened... to our babies.
M enjoy them now while you can
W yeah your right what you said oneday we won't even get notice
M yelp. We will be wishing for hugs, kisses and them just watching a full
Movie
W I know your so right M, I will enjoy and just enjoy every moment
M yes am so happy for you
W good night M.
M goodnight

So it was interesting and was out with a mutual friend I was busy
And again as I stated I honestly thought it was the trio's.

Friend says wow how sad, I just nodded. No M, W once a strong
Amazing, smart women. W acts like Trios grew overnight

So here I am as many LBS how do we explain our world to friends
Who will say is BS...

Friend says W sounds like she wanted to talk, I said yeah it's been
Better since the last 2yrs almost.

F, yeah M I can't imagine. M btw I see the growth in you.
I would have said Bye or F U.... W
M I laughed I said am pass all that. I honestly feel sorry for
W.
F I can tell you so peacefully and calm.
M nodding yelp time does that to you,
F wow I known both of you 10yrs I would have not thought W
M I laughed I bet you thought it would be me
F hahaha no offense I honestly thought you would be the one
M hahaha I know trust me, I did
F WTF what you mean
M I had an emotional affair for almost 6 months
F wtf
M and I thought that wasn't cheating I am realizing it's worse
F omg... you have changed omg
M tears flowing am not perfect and won't say I had my mistakes and
Did my part for W.
F hell No W was soooo wrong.
M next time I will explain more of what W going through.
F ok, and friend started talking about her Ex H who I now can say
Also is going through MLC.

Once a hard working construction fit man lost everything and bloated
From drinking. So thin Living in mom basement just got arrested for not
Paying child support. Is freaking crazy. But friend also might be going
Through her fog... boyfriend of less then 6 month moved in but
I think f is hurting. F was married 27yrs. Wow...

Is crazy see so many families broken. What happened to once
Fighting for your family your home. In the 1950 couple's
Work on marriage now is easier to walk away. So sad... am such
A old soul I believe everything in this world could be fix...

Keeping it at zero.

One day at a time