you need to calm down buddy, you are all over the place. I was too at this point in my sitch. Go read the Last Resort Technique and implement it fully. Stop pursuing.
You are still trying to talk her into staying but it doesn't appear to have worked yet. You are running down the cheeseless tunnels my man.
Just take a breath. Get out of the house and have some fun. Your W needs space, you need space.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.