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[marina7]

I don't no if I am better off with not seeing her. But I really didn't get any spew except for when I said I wouldn't help with the kids.

So here is my Question and won't sugarcoat as I also done my mistakes here.

Why!!!! Do you see what you said... these are your kids

Let her go, and become that super hero dad...

Oh trust me my kids has never told me they hate me or spewing at me.
But oh with W the boys have spew at her. W is breaking W has ask how do you
Do it M.

What I learned from all this is the more we push the more they go. At first I couldn't see
It. Now I see it W is slowly opening up.

Read my post today about S9 I thought W was going to fight me. NOPE... W agreed
With getting a 2nd opinion. W actually said M your right lets find a 2nd opinion. Woohooo
To me I am seeing more clearer with W.

I realized when I gave W the reaction W would argue now I am realizing I only can control me.

Another example
d10 has long hair almost was at waist W oneday at drop off tap my window
And said am cutting d10 Hair I waived my hand and drove off.

Couple weeks later W said how much that bother her. I said why I didn't say anything to you
W exactly you waived your hands and drove off to me that means you don't give a f**k.
I listen something I never Did..
I said I am sorry you felt that way, that wasn't what I meant.
W ok but it bother me
I said ok sorry again you feel that way.

What I realized to myself d10 hair will grow back,
There is kids out here that are dying of cancer d10 is healthy
It wasn't a big deal to me.

But the old me would have spewed some words to W.

I hope you see what am trying to say. I love my W I had to work on me and still working on me.