Hit by the dreaded ILYBNILWY

[mikeyb]

So an update:

I came home from work today and cleaned up, then started working on my puzzle some more. The W came over and was helping me with it, she was starting some small talk and my responses were minimal but not rude, I think it went over pretty well. We worked on it together for about 2 hours or so. Then she had to go get ready for her night out. The entire time she was getting ready she kept coming to me for my opinion. I was trying to keep it short, "Too much", "Looks good", "It matches" those kind of responses. But she kept pushing me for my "TRUE" opinion. At which I finally caved and said "My opinion: it's hot, but too much" Tight shirt, cleavage showing etc. she agreed, and toned it down. Then continued asking me about her makeup, hair, etc. I continued with short responses. She did look really good, but not over the top. She kept saying hows shes going to hang out with co-workers and not a goal to be hit on. At the same time, she still wasn't wearing her ring. Oh well, let her have her fun. I'm still slightly concerned with it, but not near as much as I was a week or so ago.

There's been no talk about D or our MR for about 9 days I think, and I plan to keep it that way. She already knows I won't put in any leg work for D if that's the route she chooses, and she also knows I won't stand in her way from doing it. If talk of it comes up again I will continue to maintain my stance there. I may be dealing with a lot of emotional pain right now from this, but I am also a very patient person. If my route of choice is to work on it, I can wait patiently while working myself towards being able to handle the D if it does end there.

Overall detaching seems to be going pretty well for me, at least I'm thinking it is. I keep finding myself more worried about what I'm doing than what she's doing. I'm still wanting to work out our issues, but I'm not thinking about that scenario. I'm more so thinking about what I need to do if we don't.

GAL has been good. The last 3 weekends I've been over my friends house working on his car. He had a blown head gasket. I've done this work before, but always alongside my dad who use to be a mechanic. We ended up replacing his timing chain while we were at. I was a little nervous with this as it's the first time I've done it myself, and my friend is not very knowledgeable when it comes to cars. So last sunday we finished it up at about 1am and started it up. It started right up so that was a huge relief lol. BUT, when we went to take it for a test ride, a pulley came loose and the belt came off and got torn up and wrapped up around a bunch of other pulleys, sigh. SO I'll be heading back there again this weekend to fix that.

Even though we were only getting together to fix the car, we both agreed it was fun hanging out as we really don't get the opportunity to do so. We work at the same place but since I switched shifts to days, we barely get to talk, especially since I'm an hour away. I had joked around and said "Yea, thank god for woman problems right"

Anyway, I'm at the house now, I did agree to watch her friends kids for them. I am attached to these kids as I've played a big part in raising them the last 1 1/2 years and am considered a uncle to them. They both miss me as they haven't been around much the past month, she's been trying to give us some space. So I'm watching then for myself and the kids. I think part of the reason I'm so attached is because me & the W were trying to have kids the last year all the way up until BD but we were unsuccessful. And they were so active in our life, I just grew towards them.