You mean the OW? Yes, certainly. As H loves to say. It's not about her. She's just a symptom of the problem. Blah, blah blah.
I have a tendency to obsess over the wrongs done to me, but I will snap out of it. I know it.
2 years. Wow, that seems like an eternity, but I realize we've been a mess since January 2018 already, and probably before that.
That will put me at 57. Then if we divorce? 57, alone, and only 1/2 our assets. All that economizing I did so we could have a nice retirement. Really ticks me off.
But I wouldn't be alone. I would have my kids, my extended family, my new life ready and waiting for me if I continue with my work.
I know I'm a jumbled mess of emotions and thoughts. Reading back I'm all over the place. I'm wondering if I've been "putting on a show" for myself and others, and stifled some of my feelings, and they are now flooding out.
