I am not religious. If you are, great. Anything that helps. You are moving through the stages of grief. Totally healthy and normal. You are surviving. You will feel better. You just need more time. It took me 2 years. That was after he left. I think all the time he was at home wallowing just stopped him from living that dream life and stopped me from healing. Time. We don't like to admit it. But it is all about time. How are you going to use yours?
