We try to ignore to protect ourselves. But we must face reality K.
I agree with LH. I am a former ww. Not proud of it. But the signals are common in all sitches. Going deeper into snooping will hurt yourself more and diminish the chances to MR survival.
So protect yourself but don´t close your eyes.
You need to regain respect. Read what Adam posted.
Stay strong man, it´s a marathon, time is your ally.