Rocky Road

[Miler]

Well, waiting for my meeting to start. We had small talk this morning, but for the most part, she kept to the kitchen preparing dinner in the crock pot...on and off the phone (Instagram account we share), and then to the breakfast table to answer work emails. I kept to myself in the living room working on a few documents. It of course bothered me that she was on her phone rather than wanting to talk to me .

She went to look outside and its been raining for 4-5 days straight. She then walked into the living room and said, "Are those the new jeans you bought yesterday?" They look good and touched my thigh (in a very benign way). I said thanks. She then said, running in this crappy weather for the last few days doesn't have me terribly motivated to get out there again today. I said, yeah, that's got to be brutal running in that wet cold all the time. She looked at me with a down face...so I said, Hey, I'm really proud of you for staying so committed and getting out there!. She said, hey Thanks, I appreciate that! I turned away and said "I'm off to my meeting. She told me to have a good meeting and gave me a kiss on the lips on the way out. Obviously, I reciprocated the kiss, but didn't say ILY or make it into anything. I walked out... couldn't help but think and get into an anxiety state on my drive. Uggg... I HATE LIMBO!!! For all those out there with me, welcome...we can do this! Be PATIENT!