SBJ, that is interesting to me because what you wrote reminds me of my mom. I am sure in looking back that my mom's descent and divorce from my dad was MLC. She even said that same line my H said -- "You've been doing this to me for twenty years." And she became this fun-loving crazy wild woman that my friends and I liked to hang out with, smoking cigarettes, etc., even though in between I hated her and she really treated me so horribly. I don't understand how kids make sense of these things, I sure didn't, at the time. I became very hard and tough and rebellious though I had to run the house and still get straight A's and all that.
And I am glad you liked my scriptural reminder. My friend with the restaurant in Texas once sent me a pack of index cards, and on each one she had written scriptures for me. I carried them around and would pull out a card whenever I felt myself sinking. Just found those recently and resolved to carry them again!
I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord with courage. Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.