Sometimes things just build up and need to come out. Don’t beat yourself over this. It is ok.
So, what’s done is done. Let’s look at the positive side of this. It sounds like you got a bunch of stuff of your chest, and maybe out of your mind. You told him how you feel regarding reconciliation. How you still love him and care about him.
You see where he is at, the confusion, the justification, the manipulation, the poor is me, the drawing you in. And you have some answers.
You are mad, which is a good thing. This is an aggravating situation to be in, of course you can be mad. Working that anger out is more healthy than holding it in.
Now, let this particular episode go, and get back to working on Grace. She is a darn good woman and deserves your attention much more than your H. And in my ever so humble opinion, your H is a complete fool for leaving such a fine person.
You know there are lots of lessons from this night. However, just a couple of quick things in case you miss them.
A good rule is contact them after waiting 24 hours, 48 is even better. Unless it is about kids, it can wait.
H and OW are looking at buying a house together. You need to get your financial security in place.
Grace it is ok. These backslides are a necessary emotional growth. They are not uncommon, in fact everyone has them, that is why they are named. Shake it off, and move forward.
Try to get some sleep tonight. Things will look better in the morning.
I am happy to discuss anything with you. Will talk soon.
DnJ
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
