A familiar story with questions NINE

[RR17]

I not doing anything right now and when I do it will be from a place of calm.

I think sandi said it best. There comes a point when the LBS just gets tired of trying. I've GALed to the point that any more would be considered abandonment.

Wife has a 3 day business trip coming up. I don't trust that it is exactly what she has presented it to be. That level of trust is a luxury that this marriage just can't afford right now.

Right now, I believe that more serious measures are necessary. I really don't feel like I want to be with this person for the rest of my life. I'm well aware that these feelings can change, so, for now, I will vent here. But I have walked away from relationships before and I know what the point where you no longer care to try feels like. I feel very close.

Today is day 3 of NC. I still make the coffee but I come and go without notice and she is in D19s bedroom with the door shut when I return. Usually, these things blow over when something happens that requires us to communicate and she goes on good behavior and we both restore a politeness.

Well, I tired of this cycle. Tired of trying to prove anything.

Even friends don't treat a friend the way she proceeds. Even staying shows a weakness that I don't wish to portray.