Have mixed feelings today.

W messaged me to try to convince me once again that there was nothing there and that they are just good friends.

There were a few back and forths with me basically saying that I didn't want to talk unless she was going to stop lying to me and disrespecting me.

She kind of apologised about the tickets and not telling me because she "didn't think it would help" but remains adamant that they are simply on the same flight and not staying together. Weak excuse.

No real remorse sensed in any of her messages - just all defences - "I would never cheat" "we're just good friends" "I started feeling this way before I even met him" etc etc.

Would she so readily throw away a 14 year old relationship for a platonic friendship?

Is she actually so naive to think that this guy had any other intentions going on this trip with her? And that she was inviting him along as a friend?

In my mind even if she hadn't done anything with the OM yet it was only going to be a matter of time. Better to find out now than afterwards.

Still, I can't help but feel a little doubt. It is SO out of character for the woman I married, but then I have to remind myself that she is no longer that woman.