Dear God I still struggle with believing this is my life.
V-day was nice, I accepted my H offer to go to dinner. We had a good time but..:
I’m still angry with him. I’m angry that we are in this situation. So I told him I can’t do this roller coaster ride anymore. It’s exhaustjng.
So I’ve been keeping to myself more since V-day. All this has done is confuse him. He has no clue what’s going on with me. He11 he has my emotions up and down just like his.
Of course he’s been in pursuit but not as much as usual. Of course he’s tried a few temp checks but it seems he may be trying to truly let me go. After all, that’s what I asked him to do.
Truth is I think this DB stuff may be a lot easier when your spouse has moved out. It [censored] when you still live under the same roof.
Although I’m tired of the emotional roller coaster, it makes me sad that we are going to get used to Moynihan loving on each other and will become like two ships passing in the night.
I miss my old h, the one that was hear before the aliens came and traded him for this imposter.
I just want to grab him and tell him how much I love him. But I know that won’t do anything. So again, I’ve been keeping my distance from him.
I know he’s in the middle of a MLC but can anyone tell me how to get over your spouse when you still love them so much?
Editing to add: I sure wish it was easy for me to be done with him as it is for him to be done with me.
Last edited by Living; 02/19/1902:31 AM.
Original BD: 10/26/2017 PA: 10/2017 - 11/2017 Second BD: 09/15/2018 Currently: IHS M: 42 H: 45 S: 22 lives on his own D: 18 away at college S: 15 still lives at home - the only child we share together
