Haha! yeh LH I know your story on this. Well, I don't think I am saying this out of spite. I am a very - you're in, or you're out' kinda person. With DBing, I've become better at giving people more chances and space to see if they would be a good fit in my life. Previously if you were out, you were out for good. It's changed for me. However, I just have no desire to have anything with exW and her life. I know it may change and I may grow into a different person, but at this point I just don't see it.
The day has gone by and I'm still okay. Still laser focused on me and if nothing, this crap brings it even more to the forefront. I had planned to redo my resume to shake off the professional blues, and while doing so, I realized I've accomplished so much. This who BD thing threw me for such a loop about my value as a person in all areas of my life. I let my work life suffer for a long time and couldn't get around to doing my job well - I got stuff done, but not at my pace and level of execution. It's just a bad strategy to block the leak in a dam with your hands. At some point your fingers will slip and the whole thing will come crashing down. I needed to rebuild the dam, but I didn't have it in me so I hung on to dear life this whole year at my job.
Well, it changed a couple of weeks ago and I started not only pulling my weight, but actually getting things done at my level. I intend to keep building.
