And thank you Neffer you hit the nail on the head. I needed to let go of the fear of losing what maybe I never had after 18+ years. My fear now is a transition for my kids which fortunately are older and understand the sitch.

I will be taking time and space to move forward with my life.

H-50
W-48
T-19
M -18
S23, S14
BD - 5/9/2018
OM discovered 5/10/2018

In house sep - 8/18/2018
Rope drop 2/15/2019
R'ing since 3/15/2019