Sorry if I brought up disappointing memories Neffer. I am curious about your experience though. You seem like a good person... I think underneath all of his crazy behaviour, my H is too... so how does a good person justify behaviour like that? I cannot imagine living my life that way. Is it a personality thing? My H is a very private person. He doesn’t talk much about his emotions or internal experience to anyone whereas I could tell my life story to a perfect stranger. So when I am struggling with something, I would absolutely seek out a few trusted people to talk things over with. My H, on the other hand, has one or two people he MIGHT talk to. Having people challenge your perception of things is important, I think, as it often stops problems from getting too big. When you were in your worst mindset during your WAS days, were there people you talked to or did you mostly just rely on your own thinking to guide your choices? I realize that I will probably never completely understand but I am interested in your views if you are okay with sharing them with me. Also...one last question... what was the catalyst for you facing your own actions? My apologies if you have already answered these questions on other threads. (((HUGS)))
