DnJ - Thanks for your thoughtful reply. It makes a lot of sense, and it's the perspective that one doesn't consider when thoughts are irrational, which mine were yesterday. I'm in a better place.
H was just here for a few minutes to help me move some furniture to get ready to have some furniture moved out of his office back to the house. I asked how he was doing, and he seemed detached and sad. I asked him if he still felt depressed (perhaps I shouldn't, but he did mention it to me on several occasions), and he said who wouldn't be living in "basically a hovel for four months and you have this" (referring to the house). He's mentioned that before too. I want to say "you could to", but I let it alone, and just listened. He said "you seem to be doing well", and I said yes I was. I was pleased he told me he was going to visit the kids next week. They apparently asked him to. He asked "how was your cruise?" I told him it was terrific and just what I needed.
So, it was an easy enough exchange. I don't anticipate seeing him for a while. I will go quiet on the texting too, and only when necessary (which has been the norm for a while, now).
Originally Posted by Grace21
I’ve been thinking about what made me so anxious about the thought of H planning a trip with someone. Certainly must be a woman, as he doesn’t have any male friends that I know of, and he wouldn’t go on a trip with them anyway. We’ve been separated for 5 months now, and he has a history of seeking the company of other women. So it’s reasonable to assume he is still seeking the company of other women. So why did that hit me so hard?
I can see now how irrational this is!
Originally Posted by DnJ
If you want to consider possibilities - look at all. There are many and it will help dilute the untasteful and horrible ones that your mind will gravitate towards. Most often it is not as bad as we imagine.
Well, the anxiousness has waned considerably, in large part to your response, DnJ. Thank you.
Originally Posted by DnJ
And Grace the light, your light, isn’t on the other side, it is already within you, and shining. Maybe you don’t see it yet, but I certainly do.
This is the perfect reminder for today. Thank you. Our happiness is always within, and in our control, isn't it? I just misplace it once in a while, but I'm thankful I can get back on track. This is what I pray for for my H also.
P.S. I have just been invited to a casual dinner tonight. I started with no plans for the weekend on Thursday, and it ended up packed.
