Glad you found us. This is a great place for support during this difficult time of your life.
You can't control other people. You can only control yourself and how you respond to others.
Changing your own habits and behaviour is what you need to focus on right now. If you think changing your own behavior is hard, trying to change your husbands behaviour is impossible, so set him free.
I wish you well. Post questions here and you will get great advise.
HUGS
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712
