why do i still try to understand?

[susy84]

Hi Susy, how old are you, your H and your D? How long have you been married?

[I am 34, he is 38 and our d is 4. We have been together for 13 years, but never married.

Its a shame that he have to destroy our family and everything that we work for, to realize that his issue is not me.
Not much that i can do, so far i have manage to delay the sale of the house, but he will take me to court to make me sell.
This is a house that was our forever home, was my project for the last 2 years, and he even did not allow me to enjoy it. I have now detached from the house as well, will have to sell sooner or later. Now is just an expensive roof over my head.

I am not perfect, i am very outspoken, nag a bit, etc....but i also very loyal, hard working, have good values and always have been there for him.

He have been emotional abusive me, he wants to sell the house so he is trying to manipulate me to do what he wants (basically sell the house as quick as possible and given as little as he can). I have spoke with the lawyers about it and they have put in their last letter about the emotional abuse, if he carries on, i will report him.

I will not given in easily, i think i have stop trying to save him from himself. But i have to make sure that my daughter is alright.

I do not want to look back and see that i did not defend her financial interests, because i was in such an emotional state that could not do the best for her.

Deep down i know that i have done what i could, he was not interested saving this relationship. Maybe i am not good enough for him, but hopefully one day someone will appreciate who i am.
He loved me a lot, he was a good partner and a good dad. That is what i have to remember, do not want to feel that i waste all of this years.

He is being terrible with his daughter in the last month he only spend 2 days with her, very rarely calls or ask how she is doing. So i have to be the best mum i can and make sure that she feels loved and cared for.


I go to the gym, i am looking after myself, i am in early stages of opening a business with a friend.
If you saw me in the street you would think that i am in a good place, but the truth is that i can not believe how come my best friend, the person that i have trust the most could have betrayed me in such a way.

Stripping down my self esteem, making me question my worth.