P....I know what you are talking about as I have had problems myself with being vulnerable and tbh the dr makes me a little nervous and anxious. I think ultimately you have to fully believe that you will be just fine with or without a woman in your life. I am much more guarded now and will continue to be because of going through a D. Second it is just dating. 1 date or 2 dates or 3 dates or even 3 months being exclusive doesnt mean your getting married. When I think about it in those terms it helps ease my anxiety, helps put it into perspective, and allows me to just have fun and go with it. I still struggle with being vulnerable but I am getting better.