I think the best approach to your problem is to work on becoming the kind the person that any woman worthy of your love and affection would want to have as a partner. Get your ducks in a row. Set goals, take action and make things happen. You'll feel better about yourself and you'll be attractive to kind of woman you want in your life.
This man. Enjoy your time, enjoy yourself. Get into some IC, it will help you.
How´s your dad doing?
Sending hugs with a kick in the *ss emoji. Be grateful I don´t have much time now to be around. I´m sorry for that.