Feeling lost getting over it and maybe not caring

[Turbine]

She has denied an affair. I would not know if that is a bridge too far. Perhaps... my heart aches still at the thought of not being us.

Valentines Day is down played in our church. Our church... I'm trying to join and she removed herself in a temper tantrum. She still goes though. Just not with me. I still hope that changes someday. In His hands. So no card.

My coach said to say hi if I run into her at the gym. Haven't had that happen so...

This morning she pushed my buttons a bit. Not great but I did send an apology.

She still is in the house, not following through on what she told the lawyers either.

I feel like I regressed big time... again.

At this rate I will never be over her. Sounds like game over, Turbine looses.