I wanted to jump in and remind you how much support you have on this site...how many people know what you are going through and support you in your endeavors. I've been keeping quiet lately as I try and get a handle on my day to day and just live my life...but I've been keeping up with your situation almost daily and you are often in my thoughts. You do not have to keep doing what you are doing...you could give up at any time. You are walking this path because it is what you choose to do...because it is what you feel is right. I do not believe that you will regret that decision as time moves forward. When all is said and done, you will have done everything that you could. Its really hard now, but this too shall pass.
As for child protection visits, my sister has had them called on her. I would argue that her living condition at the time was not great, but her kids are loved and taken care of...and I think thats mainly what they are looking for. I don't think thats something you need to worry too much about.
