Another snow day but managed to make it into work. Super quiet day of course as people are staying home. I switched my Spring Break vacation dates around so my H could go on his ski trip. I thought about not doing it just to make him mad (I AM human) but decided against it. That is just not who I am. So he can take his week to go with his "buddy". Whether or not that is really who he is going with... matters not. I would like to think we have gotten past the lying but I would be an idiot to assume that. Now I am just trying to figure out what to do with my kids that week. I hate travelling during school closures. Everything is jacked up in price and kid-friendly places are usually crowded.
My SD19 just sent me an article on the challenges of being bisexual in which she is a featured interviewee. I am glad she and I have been able to maintain such a strong relationship and that she trusts me and sees me as a support to her. Hard to believe she is an adult. Seems like just yesterday we were picking out her flower girl dress for my wedding. Time sure does go by quickly. I was so happy that day. Really felt like I had finally gotten it right in the relationship department. If only I had known then what I know now. I would probably have still married my H but I would have made some 180s a lot earlier. Like Living said in her thread, I took a lot for granted and I didn't make a consistent effort to maintain the MR the way I should have. I know it takes two and that he made his share of mistakes, but I am not completely blameless in that regard. I should have paid attention to my intuition and took steps to change things when I first felt like he was distancing himself. Sigh... forgiving oneself is a really slooowwww process.
