Uncertain of What I Have (Thread 6)

[AnotherStander]

Basically, 25 lbs. is the equivalent of a literal spare tire. No wonder I’d feel so bad physically and mentally!

Yes! Sometimes we do a Fireman's Carry in Crossfit (walk 400 meters with a 45 pound plate in each hand) and man it really makes you realize how much some extra weight taxes you in something as simple as just walking!

Yup. W used to do that for me; I found it weird she offered this weekend—she’s effectively fired me as H, and now this?

One breath she’s all ‘I don’t want to be your wife / I don’t want to be married to you / We’re not compatible at all ETC.’ BLAH BLAH BLAH and then she offers to act like W in the past.

Yeah you've just gotta love the cake-eating! Makes no sense but what does in WASland.

I’m not above a Coke every now and then

I hate coffee so Diet Dr Pepper is my "comfort food" lol! I can cut a lot out of my diet but that I will never give up.

The only things I’d really change are my hair (thinning at top, hence why I keep it short), but I’ve come to peace with it, and add muscle / tone it up.

My hair is very thin on top, has been for ages. I keep mine short too, but I do that not to de-emphasize it but just because I ride motorcycles and work out and like as little head maintenance as possible, LOL! Honestly I never even think about it. I don't wear hats to hide it or whatever. I think men care way more about their own hair than anyone else does. I'm sure you know bald men, you don't look at them and think "oh wow is he ever bald" you just think "there's Jim."

Yeah—it’s stunning the 180 she’s made on this, even though I never expected perfect congruence between her and I on faith / spirituality. She admitted to me that she’s made her peace with God about D, even though our church probably won’t be okay with it.

And THAT is the whole WAS mindset right there. She's made peace with God about it. SHE HAS NO IDEA WHAT GOD THINKS ABOUT IT. She has justified it to herself to the point that SHE thinks it's OK with God too. Hitler thought genocide was a good idea. Hitler did not see himself as evil, quite the contrary, he thought he was ushering in a better world. I'm not saying she is the same as Hitler, but the attitude is the same pure arrogance and selfishness, thinking we know what is best for everyone and that we can impose our own morality on the rest of the world. That is really the definition of evil. Doing bad things to others while convincing yourself you're in the right, and having zero remorse over it.